Since you're here...

I haven't been updating so most people wouldn't even bother looking here for me anymore...
BUT IF YOU ARE, WELCOME!

Know what?
Things have changed a whole lot, or so I feel.
I've already prepared myself for this day to come...
Maybe I've changed drastically,
Maybe you've changed drastically or the world just went a few rounds more and the moon is in a different spot...
Ah you get wad i'm sayin...

I'm so totally in able to wait for summer to come and meet my loves...
I need to escape from this place, need to run far and need to look wide.
Whats up with me, it'll take a forever to tell,
not that you would have missed anything much interesting to tell.
But keep those judgemental eyes/mouths to yourself,
I've realised just be happy and hope for the best to the people you love most.

Just wann drop an I LOVE YOU to people still hanging around (:

Listen to this

Listen to this

Took this off someone's blog...

Not the first time i posted this song, or at least not the 1st time i've listened to this song,but it tingles my insides whenever this song is played. But yes, agreed, he plays it the best out of soooo many i've heard so far... Along with the posting of this song, my friend also talks about being good in a certain area of his/her life.

Got me thinking...

What in the world am i good at?

I love music, but honestly i'm no where near performance, appreciating more like it, enjoying banging on those keys too, but making beautiful melodies? I've still got a long way to go to learn to caress those keys HAHAHA.
Studies? OMGosh, don't get me started, I'm a math idiot period.
Not that I feel like i'm worthless, but I don't wanna be jack of all traits master of none...
The only thing i'm good at is probably making friends, but that won't get me far, neither does it make me unique... so what good am i?

Been busy busy busy and 1 thing bothering me,but i'm gonna peace out, Love you peeps...
I'm comin back soon July, keep those calendars booked for me I MISS MISSES YOU GUYS/GIRLS

DETERMINED

DETERMINED TO LOOOSEEE THOSE POUNDS!!!!

(:

Daiyan has disappeared for a long enough time already...

Is it the US or is it me just being plain lazy?
It has been really hectic.
Especially so this quarter...
I'm a math idiot, calculus is killing me...
AND i almost killed myself in a car accident, i'm fine but my car isn't.
Anyways i got it back already.

And God has been too good to me.
Yet time and time again i fail to be his faithful servant.
STILL working on that.

Homesick? Honestly not really,
i'm surrounded by alot of my homies and I CAN COOK THE BEST CHICKEN RICE U CAN EVER FIND!!!
Give u my receipe nxt time with pictures and all and i NEVER USE tt rice mix thing!
Zai or not ;)

And I'm lucky to see also a shooting star on Valentine's *double winks*

OH OH OH and i'm at my fattest point ever...
Going on a serious diet, prayers pls tt i pull through,
coz i've 2 failed days but i'm GONNA persist on

Love you peeps I SO AM WANTING TO GO HOME, not homesick but i really do miss having my close friends who are only a phone call away...

...

i keep telling myself that God is gonna provide but at the back of my head, there's the nagging worried-some feeling...

I'm stressed stressed stressed!!!!

Winter

Winter is getting to me...
I can scroll through the list of numbers I have in my phone
and not be able to find a "YOU" to call...

Where are "YOU"?

The life

There's a chinese phrase "to taste bitter first before having it sweet"

and i guess i love life this way :)

the more bitter it gets the sweeter it comes

Dilema

Life is full of choicest, you do what's best and what you seem right?
But what is the best and what is right?

CAUGHT!!!!

You know sometimes a phone call away makes it all nearer... LOVE YOU TOO BABE :)

WE AT OUR BEST!

BOO!

PRESS PLAY

1,2,3...

Significantly the world in so much need than to read the life of my daily rants...

Taking Soc and Psych classes has educated me into a better person :)
Till than my friends...
I will have my updates and a nicer background as soon as i have the time HA!

Hello people...

I've no idea why my blog background is in such a condition but i've no time to go change it.. mayb during my hols...

ANYWAY BIG SHOUTOUT TO ONE AND ALL...
I haven't really really chated with anyone in particular, not even my family since i came, so pls don't feel left out.
Even KYENNE LEE and JAMIE NG came down and i feel like i didn't really talk to them much or my heart wasn't really here... There's like so much work to do, i feel deeply drowned in the pool but i can't die... How sad right?

Ok anyways i am sick of writing and essay, i'm gonna write about a dream...

I've got a repeated dream of people going on a scaffolding trolley-lift thing and then them falling off. Its really scary but yes i had the same dream. It started off as a picnic scene, at the playground downstairs of where i live in Singapore and we were enjoying ourselves when suddenly, someone close to me a guy (not sure who, cause i don't recognise the person) when on the scaffold, all of us were saying its dangerous, but he wanted to change or do something. The next thing i looked up and saw the scaffold swinging really violently with him smiling down at me. As if knowing what was going to happen next, even before anything happen i had this sinking deep down into the pit of my stomach feeling, i turned my back towards him and walked home and he came crashing down. I heard screams behind me and i heard the thud of his body but i walked back home to his room. Next scene was everybody crowding around the room in our own worlds and i was sooo devastated i couldn't cry nor speak, the feeling in that room was so heavy and i felt a hand on my shoulder, thinking it was my dad or something i turn around to face nothing! And somehow i knew that i was to follow something/someone/somebody and i walked all the way to where i bought the 2 ducks for him (i don't know why 2 ducks...) and they moved on the table. I knew i had to keep and take them with me and oh my god, i was about to cry but i woke up...

I've never had an entire dream that came to a complete end, but i felt really sad after that...

:(

Its been long since i updated.
US hasn't been treating me well...
i was sick after my LA trip and then for the first time in my life i got an eye infection.

Everything's all going away now, but i'm still cautious of my health.
Friends are fine...
Host-family even finer than before, I think they love us even more.
Got a new roomate...
(sigh....)
*I'm quite searchable on the internet comments shall be kept on msn, skype fb chat...

and then there's the 20 credits i so happily took after my first quarter of 12 credits and 2nd quarter of 5 credits! ULTRA BIG LEAP...
And i'm like drowning now thank you very much!

I actually secretly like math, but was never GOOD in it.
I tried real hard just to get a B3 for Os...
SO 5 years down the road, i'm learning trigo again
and guess what?
ZHENG DAIYAN IS SITTING THERE LIKE AN IDIOT NOT KNOWING THE ANSWER TO ANY OF THE BLOODY QUESTIONS!

God pls help me...I'm so dead seriously...
Teacher talks as if everybody just graduated from high school,
talked about CSC, SEC and COT like i know what the hell it meant,
i had to read up after school to understand.

Got a job with my hostfamily to tutor their kid,
and be a nanny, take him from school and send him to Kumon,
WAH!! America also got Kumon!!!

Not like as if i don't have the 10,000 readings frm psych and sociology classes.
and writtings from English class....
Hallellujah Daiyan is a NERD!!!!

Heylo from Frisco

ok being totally bored with a stalled car, this is what happens..