Infactuated

Infactuated is the word!!!

Disappointment....

I'm a disappointment...
Disappointing people
Disappointed
Disappoint

Love Language

Love Language

Take 30 seconds and tell me which answer is the most true about how you feel:


1. I feel especially loved when people express how grateful they are for me, and for the simple, everyday things I do.

2. I feel especially loved when a person gives me undivided attention and spends alone time with me.

3. I feel especially loved by someone who brings me gifts and other tangible expressions of love.

4. I feel especially loved when someone pitches in to help me, perhaps by running errands or taking on household chores.

5. I feel especially loved when a person expresses feelings for me through physical contact.

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What if you could say or do just the right thing guaranteed to make that special someone feel loved? The secret is learning the right love language! It goes to a bgr or even between friends! So by answering how you like someone to show their love to you, there's also the other side, where you can find out your strongest gift to others!



Words of Affirmation

Actions don’t always speak louder than words. If this is your love language, unsolicited compliments mean the world to you. Hearing the words, “I love you,” are important—hearing the reasons behind that love sends your spirits skyward. Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten.



Quality Time

In the vernacular of Quality Time, nothing says, “I love you,” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes your significant other feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed dates, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful.



Receiving Gifts

Don’t mistake this love language for materialism; the receiver of gifts thrives on the love, thoughtfulness, and effort behind the gift. If you speak this language, the perfect gift or gesture shows that you are known, you are cared for, and you are prized above whatever was sacrificed to bring the gift to you. A missed birthday, anniversary, or a hasty, thoughtless gift would be disastrous—so would the absence of everyday gestures.



Acts of Service

Can vacuuming the floors really be an expression of love? Absolutely! Anything you do to ease the burden of responsibilities weighing on an “Acts of Service” person will speak volumes. The words he or she most want to hear: “Let me do that for you.” Laziness, broken commitments, and making more work for them tell speakers of this language their feelings don’t matter.



Physical Touch

This language isn’t all about the bedroom. A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, holding hands, and thoughtful touches on the arm, shoulder, or face—they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive.



I think i feel most loved when someone expresses feelings through physical contact. Its the little movements that counts, thats why its hard for me to be physically close to anyone! And if I do, you are someone important, and our friendship means more than a lot. I think my strongest gifting to others is quality time. I can give you my undivided attention anytime and I enjoy doing just that (:



Share with me what you got... I wanna know, hope this helps you improve your friendship or love life ;)

Halloween 2010

Halloween 2010

Just sometimes when you know too many people

and reject many invitations but still wanna hang out

and post nice pictures or just to update my close friends.

Facebook is no longer safe from stalkers.

Admit it people, we are all stalkers...

So just for you loves who still support and come view my humble blog here is this my first halloween costume and my 2nd "party in the USA". Drove 2 hours up to Davis...

When...

When you feel like shouting...

SHOUT HIS NAME!!

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When stress fills you up, you feel like you're in a box, a small box...

Please find Dyan back

"The/Social/Network"

"The/Social/Network"

Have you watched it?
Go with a light head, cause the lead talks like as if he would die if he don't spits the word out soon enough.

Well not gonna be a spoiler and spill the whole movie out.
But recent events took place and I've learnt a lot from the movie actually.
What is it that makes us tick and what keeps us interested in things on a long run?
What do men think about women, as in are we just trophy girlfriends/wife, things or are we someone to share our life with?
Why is American movies all full of White people dissing other ethnicity?
Are all billionaires the way they portray themselves to be?
Are older men finding younger girls with ulterior motives behind them?
WHATS UP WHATS IN AND WHATS OUT?

I can't study right now... HAHAHA ok go figure!

Depressed...

I think this quarter i'm more depressed than I've ever been...
I laughed at somebody who said "extreme lonliness"
becoz i haven't experienced that.

When that person said "extreme lonliness" it didn't infer not only having no
intimate relationships, but no friends and family too...
I regret what I did, and i would say, that its really a real feeling that I can't help myself.
Neither can I control it.

If i were to psychologically diagnose myself, I think i'm mildly depressed at this point.
Financially, i seem to be unable to control my outflow of cash,
although i don't seem to buy much stuff, the money disappears.
Working is not an option, there's not much time for me to work and focus on studying...

Also i think having no alone time now, makes me feel distance from God
and know what, i just need a break, from everything, I just need a retreat
into a place of nothingness for a while, I'll come back out when I'm ready...
Sometimes I just wanna SHOUT LEAVE ME ALONE,
not that I hate you or anything, i just need my quiet time......

Beyond Secrets

Beyond Secrets

"God can let something so big, so dangerous or so sad happen to us, but at the same time, strengthen us so that we will instead of falling, we grow stronger and mightily against the evil one.

By Faith, Love and His Everlasting Mercy.."

(Taken from a loved ones blog and Amen to this.)

Ya Gon Learn Chinese

Ya Gon Learn Chinese

So school started and school's a lil' tough after my FANTABULOUS SUMMER BREAK!
It ended with a Bang Bang PEUUUUUU...

I went to Lake Tahoe dude!!

Awesome time I had there, I did parasailing, white water rafting, horseback riding, hiking....
AWESOME, got my summer tan and got to know more White guys...
OMG SOUTH LAKE TAHOE in the summer only has HOT WHITE GUYS...
Not that i'm paricularly interested hey more eye candies right?

Watch out for my pictures on fb...

So yes I'm taking Chinese classes now,
like huh? ZDY what are you doing????
And no i'm not taking advanced Chinese classes,
I'm taking like introductory to Chinese class HUR HUR HUR :P
Well i'm just doing for transfer purposes and it is the most interesting class i have so far,
know why?

CAUSE I ROCK AT IT (:
but yea seriously it beats learning with a bunch of asians, when theres a mix of people
and the way they all learn are so different.
Probably my only relaxing class out of all the mods i'm taking.

MISS YOU FOLKS, SKYPE ME SOON and pull me out of my low

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Jet Lagged and bored

I haven't had any jet lagged until this time when i returned. It doesn't feel any different, only probably you feel bored waking at 3-5am in the morning thinking what to do and feeling really tired at 7pm every night. Funny why its these times, totally not related to the day and night half way across the world...

So i conclude that JETLAG is a BITCH

For those who know, updates, F changed his phone number and called me, GOD, I PRAY FERVANTLY that he doesn't find me nor stalk me nor be friends with me, I've decided to end everything even that friendship. ARGH... enough is enough (you know i usually don't end friendships but thats a period to this one)

Aside from these, I MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS my friends, family and BABY back home
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DEAD BORED

DEAD BORED

So i'm back in Frisco early this year...
I'm going through all the school applications.

Hopefully I'm able to get in somewhere.
Already missing everyone back home!
Sorry guys for the rush by in the airport
but APPRECIATE TIME TAKEN TO CRAWL OUT AND SEND ME OFF!!!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE,
I'm having a bad bout of jet-lag this time ard...

Ho Ho Ho!

Oh....

so now i see your TRUE COLORS !!

Conclusion to everything that I've found out from my time in Singapore? I choose to ignore, not because i'm ignorant but because there's so much more things in life i want to be appreciative and happy about, rather than having to worry about and care about. That also doesn't mean I don't care either, but personal decisions are yours to make, not to be influenced nor forced upon.

I see displeasures, i see anger, i see hatred, i see fear, i see frustrations, i see disappointment and most of what i saw WAS happiness. What can i do in this short period of time? Apologies won't sound sincere, appreciation, would be misunderstood, celebration, would be inappropriate.

I wish to shout GROW UP but who am I to say? When I know I'm one of those who needs it too!
Forgive and forget is still my moto, the friendship of xx years overwrites all else. And I still love you <3

AH!!!

I'm so irritated by these black flies i had to blog at 3:57AM!

Firstly these dumb flies are DUMB, they don't fly fast enough and they stay in that position for you to kill them.

Second they don't do anything other than create a black stain-like shape on the beds/walls/clothes/etc. (not counting the stain they create after u smash them)

Third they die by themselves and you see their motionless body littered all over the floor...

SO WHY DO THEY EXIST?!

Shout out!

A quick SHOUT OUT!

In support of a great friend
Click here for some shopping!!

Oops!

Opps I did it again!

I've got my hair cut short yet again, irresistable (:

Book Review

I've decided to do occassional Book Reviews...
And mayb if you're interested I could sell them at less than Half price, since they are second hand books, I've got a growing library in my biggest cupboard and there's over 30 books I haven't read and more to come...

Stir Of Echoes by Richard Matheson
(Also author of I am Legend)

It reallyis a book that gives you a lucid imagination as the thoughts of the protagonist is being revealed to the readers. Tom Wallace lived an ordinary life but an event took place that triggered his psychic abilities he never knew he possessed. Hearing others' private thoughts, secrets revealed could be his scariest nightmare as messages are compelling to come from beyond the grave! If you're digging for a thriller type of book, this is the one for you. A short read I would say and this book came from the library, so not on sale/or for loan at my place (:

The Nature of Alexander the Great by Mary Renault

Totally a good historical read. The book was first published in 1979. Up till now, i find it really interesting as it is an unconventional way of bringing Alexander the Great to readers. It brought me from the first page to the last page through all the battles he has gotten through. The walk with his family from Macedon to Troy to Persia and lastly to India. Then his last march to Babylon. Most of the biography came from Arrian who knew Alexander as an intimate friend, general and possible half brother. A loyal leader amongst his troops and one courageous to fight and conquer many empires to build his own. Read on if you would like to know more bout him, or the era around 356BC-323BC. Again I borrowed this from the library, so you would be able to find it in the regional libraries.

Songs

Songs that accompany me through the night



Rain by Brian Crain



Sunrise by Dough Hammer



Jim brickman - Flying high



Robin Spielberg - Until You Come Home

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I'm so gonna buy his CD!



I'm thirsty, God, I'm thirsty
From drinking what destroys me
I'm pouring poison in my cup

I'm hungry, God, I'm hungry
Consuming what controls me
Somehow it never fills me up

We all want to find something to pass the time
But that could never be enough

Everybody says we're all so different
But everybody knows we're all the same
We're all trying to find a pill to numb the pain
Something's got to change

Do you remember when you
Had so much hope within you
It lingers deep inside you still

The more of us we swallow
The more we become hollow
Until we don't know how to feel

We all want to find something to satisfy
But we could never be enough

Everybody says we're all so different
But everybody knows we're all the same
We're all trying to find a pill to numb the pain
Something's got to change

When everything we say and take just leads to war and hate
We only pass the blame, sedate the pain, and move along
But something feels so wrong, so deep inside, so hard to hide
So desperately we try and try, and come to find that we are not what we've been looking for

I can't believe I"m hearing people say that all is well
I think it's time we all admit we have no good within ourselves
'Cause we are not okay, we're not alright, and we need to pray for help
Forgive us for our pride, Oh God, Oh God, please save us from ourselves

'Cause everybody says we're all so different
But everybody knows we're all the same
We're all trying to find a pill to numb the pain
Something's got to change

So God help us
Something's got to change
Something's got to change
So God help us
Something's got to change
So God help us

Before the Morning

Before the Morning


Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain that you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, and just fight the good fight
because the pain that you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good for those who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain that you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, and just fight the good fight
because the pain that you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,
that you still got a reason to sing,
'cause the pain that you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,
that you still got a reason to sing,
'cause the pain that you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming
com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, and just fight the good fight
because the pain that you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning,
yeah, yeah
before the morning
yeah, yeah
before the morning

Touristy talk

So i've been here for so long and I haven't done any touristy talk about what I've done...

Anyways today was really hot,
usually up in SF its cold but it was wooo HOT!
Maybe becoz i'm the coz of global warming (HAHAHAHA, you know i'm kiddin right)
So finished hmwk at 5am and slept and woke at 7am
Travelled a good 45mins to SF and reached at 10am.
Met TLam and went to pick PP.

And for the first time ever (yes i've been here for a yr)
I stepped into Castro, the very famous gay street
and found the church TLam goes to called
"Reality SF" good worship!
Then we walked a little and ate Indian food,
Second time this week...but its good!

And we saw baby shirts "Diaper loading", "Ipood", "Potty Like a Rockstar!"

And we had a good talk about Palladium (check out the periodic table)
with our very own chemist, and ex-architecture student about SF Academy of Science building and MOMA and the exploratarium. Of which i've yet to visit 2 of them.

then we headed off to the twin peaks,
as mountain as a tortoise as I am, it was my virgin trip!
Gosh the view? FANTASTIC, and i forgot my camera WONDERFUL!
After which we came down for some ice-cream at Bi-Rite Creamery.
Gosh best thing ever! Earl grey tea is the bomb and honey lavender shld be gone!
(Insert photo)

And then right before we sent PP to her friend's brother's graduation,
we stopped by at blue bottle, to get the best coffee.
As blastingly full as I am, I had to give that up!
God loves me so much to bless me with a fun-filled Sunday.
Although i used my lousy cellphone camera but I hope it has made you a wee bit interested in comin to visit this place (:

Co-incedent

Many people come and go in your life,
and yet they reappear again at other occasions.
Yet some others touch your life for a short period and disappear.
Whats the purpose i meet you?

There's always a reason,
they come by and teach you something,
sometimes they come by to take something (well in other words needing our help).
At other times, its a beginning of something new...

You, you, you and you
has touched my life in one way or another
and to you, I hope a new seed will flourish in you.
And you would enjoy your time while travelling around US.
And you to always stay safe and be loved no matter where you are...

Love Daiyan

Raised

"You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Probably an old song,
but it spoke to me...
And it comforts me to have someone sit awhile with me (:
And thank youu for raising me up to more than I can BE!

Found

Lost and truely broken,
I'm once again at your feet (:

Love the Moment

Would you believe me if I said Santa Claus exist?

Someone told me she did,
And I totally believed her...

Would you believe me if I said money appears in my pocket before offering time in church?

No one told me,
but I've experienced it...

Would you have a child-like faith to believe in just what I'm saying?

Tit for Tat

Since you're here...

I haven't been updating so most people wouldn't even bother looking here for me anymore...
BUT IF YOU ARE, WELCOME!

Know what?
Things have changed a whole lot, or so I feel.
I've already prepared myself for this day to come...
Maybe I've changed drastically,
Maybe you've changed drastically or the world just went a few rounds more and the moon is in a different spot...
Ah you get wad i'm sayin...

I'm so totally in able to wait for summer to come and meet my loves...
I need to escape from this place, need to run far and need to look wide.
Whats up with me, it'll take a forever to tell,
not that you would have missed anything much interesting to tell.
But keep those judgemental eyes/mouths to yourself,
I've realised just be happy and hope for the best to the people you love most.

Just wann drop an I LOVE YOU to people still hanging around (:

Listen to this

Listen to this

Took this off someone's blog...

Not the first time i posted this song, or at least not the 1st time i've listened to this song,but it tingles my insides whenever this song is played. But yes, agreed, he plays it the best out of soooo many i've heard so far... Along with the posting of this song, my friend also talks about being good in a certain area of his/her life.

Got me thinking...

What in the world am i good at?

I love music, but honestly i'm no where near performance, appreciating more like it, enjoying banging on those keys too, but making beautiful melodies? I've still got a long way to go to learn to caress those keys HAHAHA.
Studies? OMGosh, don't get me started, I'm a math idiot period.
Not that I feel like i'm worthless, but I don't wanna be jack of all traits master of none...
The only thing i'm good at is probably making friends, but that won't get me far, neither does it make me unique... so what good am i?

Been busy busy busy and 1 thing bothering me,but i'm gonna peace out, Love you peeps...
I'm comin back soon July, keep those calendars booked for me I MISS MISSES YOU GUYS/GIRLS

DETERMINED

DETERMINED TO LOOOSEEE THOSE POUNDS!!!!

(:

Daiyan has disappeared for a long enough time already...

Is it the US or is it me just being plain lazy?
It has been really hectic.
Especially so this quarter...
I'm a math idiot, calculus is killing me...
AND i almost killed myself in a car accident, i'm fine but my car isn't.
Anyways i got it back already.

And God has been too good to me.
Yet time and time again i fail to be his faithful servant.
STILL working on that.

Homesick? Honestly not really,
i'm surrounded by alot of my homies and I CAN COOK THE BEST CHICKEN RICE U CAN EVER FIND!!!
Give u my receipe nxt time with pictures and all and i NEVER USE tt rice mix thing!
Zai or not ;)

And I'm lucky to see also a shooting star on Valentine's *double winks*

OH OH OH and i'm at my fattest point ever...
Going on a serious diet, prayers pls tt i pull through,
coz i've 2 failed days but i'm GONNA persist on

Love you peeps I SO AM WANTING TO GO HOME, not homesick but i really do miss having my close friends who are only a phone call away...

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i keep telling myself that God is gonna provide but at the back of my head, there's the nagging worried-some feeling...

I'm stressed stressed stressed!!!!