On Hold, please wait!

everything's on hold.

1) Need to finish up my newsletter design
2) Do up mindmap and finish up work for Ms Renee
3) Waiting for all sorts of payment from church
4) New year resolution
5) Packing and renovation of room
6) Buy New Year prezzies (cause din get any for Christmas)
7) Go for stupid YOGA classes which this Darren guy apparantly keeps disturbing me to go for VIP guest passes shit, Dale, go with me can? its some lame stuff la but yea...
8) Shop for new camera
9) Go shopping with Cuzzie, sorry ar busy busy

i'm like 1 less to 10, but i guess something just slipped outta my mind..

OH WAIT...
10) Go shopping for all pink/princess theme for Jams partyyyy!
11) Missed YF camp shall attend YAF camp (hopefully)
12) Get my money back frm YF camp
13) Go find Gwen, return her her books and get mine back
14) Dale holding on to one of my books
15) Reuben tan has held on to my book for years which i just remembered
16) Buy "for one more day" by mitch albom, "the curious of the dog in the night time" by Mark Haddon and "Damaged" by Cathy Glass
17) Buy assessment book for my Cambodian tuition kid and contact him when i should start lesson
18) Return DAD, SIS and MUM the burrowed money (Genting has sucked me up real dry!)
19) waiting for Denise on whether we gonna have a Chalet since KL trip cancelled

HA AND I'M ALMOST BREATHLESS!
at least life's back to normal, ignore previous emo post!

close of the chapter...

Hopefully this is my last post for this year, nxt on will be quite busy won't have much updates,
Anyway as hopeful as i am, i always check back for comments but nobody does and i just read my post over and over again, find it pointless...

Ironically as it sounds,
I'm gonna be pessimistic frm here on
though i'm usually obtimistic bout most things.

I'm bursting literally,
physically (many ppl said i've put on weight, i agree so)
and emotionally (let me rant for once, its not that i can't take it but recently i'm homebound so have no output for me [yes thank God right])

whats the point of always being obtimistic bout things?
I'm freaking tired now, tired of always seeing the good points,
you try and try and make it work and get it to work,
it does work at the end but it was a long and tiring journey.

Doesn't happen once, its gonna happen your whole life.
You cheer your people on together with you,
you have miscommunications,
you have friendship problems,
you have time management problems,
you have problems with grades,
you have a problem being a christian,
suddenly it all comes crashing down,
What and Why am i doing this for?
where's that focus and where's that source of energy??
Where has God gone too? (i think i use to sustain in Him but now i've lost him and also after Genting trip late nights and all has screwed up this bloody body clock of mine, can't wake up at 7am to get ready for church)

What am i to do now?
Will God bless this show even if He knows i haven't been communicating with Him?
(its like will your father forgive you even if he knows that you're just rebelling him for such a long time)

Its been really trying for me,
i don't know why but especially now!
when i hope that all of these will come to an end.

But a life is never a life without problems...
ar i'm just tired, lonely and stressed...
I'll probably delete this post after a while...
So not me...

Somehow it reminds me of Jamie's
"the more you slp, the more you get headaches, but the more headaches you get, you slp some more but then again you get even more headaches!"

but i believe after a while and naturally, it will all go away.

I need God right now...

i've finally gotten the time to upload pics - have yet to upload nicer photos in other ppl's camera, till then enjoy these...

the night that was all a blur (new friends)

went to support beng at a theatrical play, where i made a fool out of myself by falling off a step..
(yes go ahead and laugh)

condensation on the lens - i kinda like the effect and look at the pretty christmas decorated yacht behind! Pardon the messy hair and sleepy look...

Starting afresh...

Ah, its the year end now,
life's starting all afresh!

Went to 2 "Prestigious" places
pres·ti·gious (prě-stē'jəs, -stĭj'əs) adj. Having prestige; esteemed.

Well some may view it as that some wouldn't,
to me is just eye-opening but i don't feel hyped bout it.
ok well mayb a lil' since its my virgin trips :)

ok enough suspense,
went to 1 degree 15 club (not for yachting, but for work sadly)
had my own lil adventure which really shocked me.
(i won't be surprised if somebody told me this "LOOK i've my own private yacht in my FRONT PORCH! OH not forgetting my husband's bumblebee yellow LAMBOGINI at the side in my garage! Where do i stay? Oh in SENTOSA COVE!)

and of course i made a new friend and i met Vane...
(thanks to her, things weren't that much foreign)

Ok i'm sorry dearlings..
i know lots of you wanted to bring me in to a club and booked me and all...
sorry no longer a virgin clubber.
Ok feelings bout it?
Its just much more rowdy that a pub, no space, packed like crazy, lots of booze and dancing.
Something that i learned,
standing still is much more dizzy than moving, with all the flashes of lights and blasting music.
I can't say i liked it,
neither can i say i hate it,
its just a place to go to have fun with your friends i guess.

and here, i met up with an old new friend and many other new friends(no not those clubbers but friend's friends) :)

i feel liberated from old dark times where i keep thinking friends are all attached and gone,
i've learnt to love the time with myself and treasure times going out and making new friends.

with so much going on right now,
including christmas drama and more work on the way,
i take it as God's way of teaching me more of time management and the importance of Him in my life, right now i'm still learning it step by step holding His hands which are guiding me.

finally...

Pre-school i was working at

the sweetest yet

It's just those honest emotions that keep me going! A birthday celebration and also that was my last day there...

Genting - where i learnt the most valuable lessons & where i bonded the most
this is as bad as it can get, eye mask to the rescue!

As HAPPY as we were glad to be relieve of workload...

As SAD as we were, to leave each other's company...

Benno fashion walk - Attica
Our time out after missing each other for a week :)
Oh btw, we exchanged necklaces...
staring at it more, how different can 2 sisters look?

back...

actually i'm still down right sick..
also i'm experiencing bad post-production blues...

What i expected really came true,
many sleepless nights (even if we slept its a mere 3 hours or so)
well downsides are a plenty,
the upsides were even more :)

(well not really true but i prefer to remember my happy times)
Note To those going to genting:
1) its really cold, bring lots of warmers
2) food is like EXPENSIVE
3) lip balms and moisturisers are a MUST
4) BRING LOTS OF TISSUES!

* genting freaking doesn't sell any tissues at all,
if you really are about dying not having one, you've gotta get kotex pads la, trust me!
and plain bottled water is almost 4 RM!!!

i've also got to know my budak budak NAFA mates a whole lot more...
and no matter what happens, i LOVE them a great deal really.

ok nobody ever wants to read these days,
so photos?
lets go...

(I'm PISSED, I CAN'T UPLOAD NOTHING!)