Just keep moving moving moving...

SOPHIA SIM, breakfast is over, lunch is also over... I'm MOST WANTING TO SEE YOU :(
Calling out to Sophia Sim, don't go missing again!

haha after that "Breaking news" post,
I is surprised i've got readers...
there's really words at the bottom,
no need any more highlighting i've already put the words in black already...
Sorry i had my fun for fooling you guys,
i can't promise i won't do it again KuaKua...

anyways its really amazing...
how God speaks to us individually.
Em lemme explain "speak"
its not literal not like "hey Daiyan you know...."
I use to think He will literally TALK to me
But actually it comes in many ways!

Something is meant to be put across to me,
although i'm not quite sure.
Was watching Oprah the other day,
and with today's sermons.

Let me share my principles of life
1) Be patient
2) A little more sensitive
3) A whole lot more of honesty.

Now its not easy doing it but really easy for me to type it out or talk to you about it.
No idea why these were the first 3 things that came to my mind.
And my cell was sharing bout you know
"Let GO and let GOD"
it will always be a constant struggle for me.

In recent days,
with so much confusion and worry...
God has set aside today,
to make a difference in me :)
*oddly i don't link or make sense, random thoughts

Ending off by being a lil' more honest,
I REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS

randomizing..

Cho Cho is a Lion Head Lop
(each day her ears gets floppier)

Daiyan is getting fatter
(have to attain some kinda fitness achievement)

Daiyan has refrained from Town for at least 2 weeks odd

Daiyan wishes that school term of 8 weeks END NOW!

Daiyan is damn bored waiting for pictures to upload so that she can go slp...

Daiyan just wanted to say, Goosenight everybody

I is BORED!

Agoraphobia

Who knows... I always thought i had more sweat glands,
or well i SERIOUSLY can't stand the humidity in Singapore.

didn't occur to me until today.
I was on my way to Trueway Pres for my rehearsal.
Just bathed, really windy.
I STROLLED to the MRT station
And after reaching BB MRT plateform
i started perspiring, which was normal (as usual).

i thought mayb i walked too far frm home to the MRT
and yes it went on and on, the water was dripping from wherewhere.
Almost finished a packet of tissues.
i touched my forhead, nope no fever...

Was just telling my dad bout it and he said,
i think you've got a phobia...
Really nv crossed my mind, i searched

Agoraphobia -
a condition where one becomes anxious in environments that are unfamiliar or where he/she perceives that they have little control. Triggers may include crowds, wide open spaces or travelling, even short distances.

Cause of it?
1) I use to have a phobia of MRTs, lifts and certain automated doors closing to nv open again
(through time i've learned not to be so afraid, i still am actually)
2) then i started getting involved all over the place, i may seem like some social butterfly, I love the attend events but yes i am very afraid of people...
(you don't realise it but i'll start breaking out to cold/hot sweat)
3) Main reasons is the stares, i'm very affected by how ppl judge me, have a high need for approval, control and sometimes getting a bit too sensitive...

Cure -
1) suck sweet
2) Listen to music calms me down
3) hold on to my handphone
4) have friends to distract me

But no worries, i'm not an extreme case, more like a mild case...
It got worst today becoz me has not sat on the mrt for say 2 weeks!
ha so ppl i've found what i am afraid of...

Shoo flu shoo!!!

alrights, the previous post is nonsense..
If you hadn't noticed there are words in the blank space below.
Highlight it and you'll see them.

I am happy that ppl do actually read my blog!
Oh mans super funny..
Anyway i'm getting irritated by this flu bug...

and mood recently is anti-social...

BREAKING NEWS!

Beng took this photo of us in a dark alley.
He's my new boyfriend!
Tall, slim, owns his own theatre company...
Surprise surprise???
This was taken like a month back or something.
Just finished a show and we chilled at Going Oohm.
Shall not tell you where...
yea and he even said that we should plan to get MARRIED!!!








Yea right as deluded as his mind can be.
i am just as deluded,
Haha he is my gay friend la!
What i just said is for fun!
This blog is kinda dead need to spice it up!

Stuckingly suck!

I'm really bummed,
just finished my driving lesson...

its been a while since i talked about it.
well this is how i work,
if i know my weakness, I'll change for the better the next time round.
But for driving,
its either i have phobia of going fast and images of wracked cars are flashing across my brain
or whatever, my car just won't pass that 40Km/h mark.
Mine you i'm like already at my 9th or 10th lesson...

It really suck, knowing the mistake and not being able to correct it.
My Seow friend has consistantly reminded me the same stuff...
and i change my gear really slow, especially for gear 3 and 4.
Lane change used to be a problem, isn't so anymore,
checking blindspots, getting used to it too.
i think i'm fine in circuit too, at least today was a breeze...
Ya i think my most basic suck, which is pushing the accelerator and break HARDER!
Sigh...

This really reflects on my life as a whole,
i take back what i wrote in the previous post, it wasn't that i didn't have fun but
i realised in recent years, i've been keeping everything at a comfortable level.
And thats not how i want things to be..
i love to dare myself,
but i seriously do not know what made me stop this "daring" spirit of mine..
I feel like i can't do things right this days :(

i'm better off on a GO-Kart!

Fun?

Ha Oprah has definitely been a really influential and inspiring woman...
And therefore, i've answered myself a question there.

Comparing to the days back when i was in lower sec,
i use to have SOOOO much more fun
(Hang in there, that doesn't mean like a whole lot of fun to others, but i was at my peak then)
as responsibility grow, i started becoming serious.

I was actually really affected when one day Mr Cambodian Prince stopped me dead in my tracks,
when he randomly commented,
"teacher you're too serious already"
(well then again he IS ALWAYS climbing over my head)
but he is right, i guess i need to use another method there.

And after Oprah's show today,
i finally know what i miss.
After the YF's outing, i felt kinda leftout.
not becoz i've no friends but leftout as in i was included in the Fun.
Its not because i wasn't included by my team or organisers but becoz i chose not too.

Its really hard to break myself out of myself this days.
I complain about meetups with friends being really chore-like.
Well i made it that way and thats how it turns up...
Since having so much time on my hands now,
its time to learn to have FUN!
(pardon the ugly face,but the expression shows it all)

Life's like this

Actually i'm really embarrassed this days when ppl ask me what i'm doing?

Well the only description i have is,
i'm a bird sitting in a cage with its doors opened counting the number of feathers i've dropped.

I'm deadly bored with wasting time away,
but i've got these kids that i adore,
so i will finish up my nxt 8 weeks with them before i officially say good bye.

I'm awaiting a new chapter of my life nxt yr.
It has really hit me that its really damn exciting to be far and away,
but thinking it through about escaping into the unknown was all just an excuse.
I think i'll definitely MISS and be homesick by the time 1 month has passed.

But really God did put a slow-down in my life and make me see His purpose.
And though yes i've many changes of majoring courses like changing "te kor"
but it refined what God has installed for me,
though not exactly sure what is it, he is pointing at.
I'm all set and ready to try and be out there.

let me embrace uncertainty and take a hop in front with a big smile!
Will you be behind me supporting me?

Cho Cho's Advertorial

After some of you mentioned that my darhling baby,
doesn't look like a bunny i did a 2nd photoshoot without my other darhling the 400D.
i feel that my powershot can bring out her colours...
But oh wells, objective is to show you that she's REALLY a bunny
and to all other "God-mother/father" who are worried of her ringworms,
take a look, her paws growing fur!!

On a side note, i got smart, so i snipped her nails off, lesser scratches now!

Presenting to you the 2nd baby of the family...
Loved by everyone
and just brings extra love to me,
another reason for being homesick this days HA!

so she climbs up every single thing that she can climb on, including my staircase.
and i thought i wanted to teach her to do that,
i guess she's just really smart...

Ok it was so hard just to get her full features,
this is how she really looks,
anyway she's asking me, when are you going to get me a new cage?
i've enough of reading classifieds!

But i still love you,
*flying kiss "so after so many photos of me,
i really look like an ultra cute bunny right!
Till next time, bye ppl! You can come visit me often."

Inspired.

Daiyan has realised that she will live by her own standards no more!
Lets follow the Lord in trust, in faith and with love...

As random as it sounds yes thats my decision.