i seriously do not know how to express myself, even my music teacher always say "Daiyan where is your music sense? Feel the music" since the very day i started class with her...
i guess i'm one who grew up in a traditional family, it kinda works like other then being happy, every other feeling is a taboo. i guess that is one way to help their daughters (me and my sis) to grow and be independent. But in a way, sometimes i still feel weird telling close frendz how i really feel.
hahaha honestly speaking i tink u can imagine it like, asking you to strip to your frendz. ya it feels that awkward.
i really hope its frm deep down, otherwise its better that u juz forget...
Aniway its time i put aside my stubborness of washing myself in self pity, i've come to realised(actually i knew it all along) keeping urself happy and positive is still the way of life man! I'm gonna pick up my pieces get my life back on track. I'm starting to think, is management,or stage management wad i really wanna do? can i sacrifice my time? especially my piano? I've realised my fingers are getting weaker, i can't play my scales properly no more...
ITS TIME I LAY OUT MY LIFE IN FRONT OF ME.... DAIYAN IS BACK!
Lord, pls come back to the driver's seat, i dunno how but i tink i've wondered into the driver's sear for too long.
am i very free? or i have nothing else better to do? another post of my random thoughts... anyway photos to come :)
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